...From today my Master's Program begins!! I am so excited/nervous/freakedout/stressed/monkey/anxious/terrified/thrilled/tired/happy/can't wait!! (Did anyone notice the monkey in the middle there? Just threw that in for fun.)
Anyway, this month will go by quickly. My mom is coming to visit for a while, my hours will be changing at work, I'll be buying books and figuring out my schedule, then to Reno for a weekend, then school! I think once school starts I will actually be spending more time with my girls than I've been able to since March, which I am so excited about. It just breaks my heart when I think about not being with them all day. Tearing up right now. Quick, change the subject.
So, there ya go. Oh, and I am getting really tired of this not-really-divorced-but-not-really-married stage. Like really.
Isn't it time for me to wake up yet? This nightmare is getting old.
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Nikki, I'm so excited for you! School is going to come and FLY BY and you will just love it. It seriously feels like I went and signed up for my MBA program just a few weeks ago, and now over 2 years later, I have already been out of school for 6 months, it is just crazy. That will be so nice to be home more with the girls. You are so dang smart, you will just breeze through.
Anyway, I love ya to pieces and wish you the very best! Call me if you get a few minutes.
Suz
School will be fun for you! And more time with the girls will be great. I think you should have a party once everything in your nightmare is over.
fantastic! school WILL fly by. don't worry about that- and depending on your program, you'll definitely be able to be home more. if you ever need any one to feel your grad school pain, let me know! (i'm finishing up my ph.d. this coming semester (i hope!)...almost..there's that pesky internship thing to do).
That's the really nice thing about school is that you have that extra time you wouldn't have if you were just working.
I must have missed what you are going to school for. Can you remind me?
one more thing to add to your list:
1. hang out with me. :)
I'm actually jealous that you're going back to school, I would to go back and go to nursing school. but, i just dont see it happening anytime soon.
oh, and that monkey thrown in there totally threw me off.
thanks for the comment! One last thing... How long did you have to wait to register? Its on Sunday morning but should I plan on making it to church at one? : )
Off the topic...but maybe a good topic for your Have Joy blog... your last line on this post made me think of it.
I know nothing about your personal situation, nor do I need to know, so this question may not even apply to your specific situation. However, HOW do you know when divorce is right for you?
I think in our religious "culture" it is one of the most taboo topics around and understandably a situation of "last resort". How is that decision come to? How do you make peace with it and know for sure it is the right thing to do under the circumstances?
(p.s. This is not meant to put you "on the spot" or to sound judgemental, it is an honest question. I know many people who are staying in bad situations because their fear of divorce, or the fear of the "unknown" (i.e. having to go back to grad. school, use daycare, etc.) overrides their fear of their current circumstances...if you have any insights to share, I think it could be incredibly helpful!)
Oooh...I'm excited for the response to the previous "anonymous" post! :)
Someone should write a book on that topic.
Hmmm...
Hang in there, Nikki! In three weeks a huge, painful chapter of this experience will be over -- the chapter where you're at work all day, not being able to see your girls much, having a job that's good but not very fulfilling (does your boss read this? Hope not...). Basically just treading water, which would be crazy-making for anyone.
A much more exciting chapter will be starting soon! You'll be with your girls a lot more, and you'll be moving towards a dream you've had for a long time (being a therapist), so even if the divorce keeps dragging on at least other areas of your life will be a lot more fun!
Woot Woot! :)
A+, just thought I'd give you your first grade!!! I'm feeling all of the same things for you--minus the monkey; that was a good laugh! Also I thought you might just be having some bachelor throw back memories, since yes the happy couple monkey shane and matt called it quits!!! sad oh sad, but what can you do!---maybe they'll come to you as their therapist! You are going to do terrific!!! I'm so happy that you'll be with the girls more---bright spot in the midst of all of this for sure! Hang in there!
Congratulations! I had heard you talking about school but I didn't realize that we would be starting around the same time. You'll do great!
Well, Nikki I think that you already answered the question that Anonymous posed in a previous post just a few months ago, in an old post - you don't have to respond at all, explanation already given!
My daughter was in the same boat - the divorce that was supposed to take 'mere weeks' when you do-it-yourself on the internet (ha) stretched instead to months and nearly a year. Excruciating.
Good times ahead for you, I'm sure. We, your blog lurkers, look forward to reading Future Adventures and of course, you MUST write about them.
Tx
Jen--awesome that you're close to getting your Ph.D.! What are you getting it in? I definitely might need some blog comment pep talks once I realize what I'm getting myself into :).
Tierra--I am getting my master's in Marital and Family Therapy. That's right. Go ahead and laugh at the irony. I know I sure do. haha.
Julia--I haven't forgotten you! Taylen just the other day told me, "remember my cousin rayla? She's my favorite." I keep forgetting the dates you'll be here, though. And we'll have to get creative with my work schedule. Let me know...
Kami--MONKEY AND WHAT'S-HIS-NAME ARE CALLING IT QUITS?!? WHAT?! I have heard nothing about this. If this is true, my faith in true love will be lost forever.
Tiffany--you're starting the nursing program, right? How long is that program for you? In about 6 months when we both have the zombie look going on at church we'll know why... :) School + mothering is going to be hard work. BUT TOTALLY WORTH IT. right? haha.
LE--I'm not sure exactly which anonymous comment you're referring to... so I couldn't respond if I wanted to! haha. My divorce looks like it could definitely make it to the year mark. Bleh. And I appreciate you using the initials :) Anonymous to everyone else, but I'm pretty sure I know who you are. Thanks :) And thanks for being excited about my future adventures!! I'm sure there are plenty to come :)
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