Asleep

I am happy right now.

Just watched American Idol.

Laughed.
Laughed some more.

I've been in a happy mood ALL YEAR!! haha.

Seriously, though. So far, I am liking 2009.

I had a great break, which I just really (really times a million) needed.

I have been revamping my spirituality a bit. Just putting things that should be priorities back where priorities need to go. Like...um...the Priority List.

I have been spending a lot more time with my girls because I'm not in school at the moment.

And I'm just excited about what this year has in store for me. I can feel the ickiness starting to evaporate a little bit.

And pieces of me are waking up that have been suffocated by a couple years' worth of crap (insert any strong, feces-related word you wish into this sentence). And I've really missed those parts of me. And I didn't even notice that they had faded away.

For example:
1. I'm singing. (I'm in a store, and I'm siiingiiinng.) Like, around the house, in the car, at the top of my lungs while doing chores. There was a long time there that I didn't do that. And I didn't notice. And I'm glad it's back. :)

2. My kids were asleep. I was alone in the house. So I (naturally) decided to practice my karate jumps. I spent a good ten minutes running down the hall and flinging myself (not) gracefully into the air...complete with hand chopping motions and warrior cries. Face planted a couple of times. It was awesome. And I thought to myself, "It's really too bad there's not a man around these parts to appreciate me right now." haha. That dorky, way-too-much-energy side of me was on hiatus for a while. And I have no idea how to spell high-ate-us.

3. I run with my kids. Not like, "hey, let's go for a quick jog." But like, "Taylen! We're at the mall and there's a bunch of people around but I'll race you to the ice cream store...ready, go!!" And we run, and she laughs, and I look like an idiot, but I don't care.

4. I tell stories. This has always been a Schroeder gift (or curse...not sure). We can turn pretty much ANYTHING that happens during the day into an entertaining story. I've noticed myself doing that more and more, and I love it. It makes for interesting days, and weeks, and lives. :)


Yay for coming back to life after being numb and frozen and devastated and heavy and dark for so long!! It's like when all the blood rushes to your leg after you've been sitting on it weird.

The life is rushing back into me.

And it tingles.

And I like it.